What would you call this? an anxiety attack? a panic attack?Its kind of hard to explain but I will tell you the steps that I get these "attacks" in.
1) I start getting really bored. Physically I am in pain because I am so bored, my neck cramps, my back is on fire, my wrists seize up.
2) Some one says some thing to annoy me. Usually my mother.
3) I get really irritable.
4) (by now I have lost control of thinking clearly) I start freaking out about germs, and get paranoid that all these parasites are crawling all over me.
5)my heart rate increases it beats so fast it hurts my chest. I am finding it even harder to breath.
6) A... rage overcomes me, and I start yelling and screaming.
7) I start scratching my arms until I have cuts on them and my face.
8) If I am at my house, I will ruin every thing in sight. I will go down the halls ripping down my mothers prized paintings, and if I am at my computer I will hit it, my laptop I will throw it.
two things can now happen
9a) I start freaking out and crying so hard I can't breath and I am gulping for air.
9b) I take a hot shower. Really hot. So hot that the next day I wake up with heat blisters on my neck and shoulders.
10) I either fall asleep on the floor after crying, pass out or black out. It is then followed by 14 hours of sleep or more.
I wake up and I am physically and emotionally exhausted.
I am a happy person. I have never purposely hurt my self or others, I have never been on anti depressants. I don't do any drugs, unless you count the doctor prescribing me medication for tonsillitis.
these happened to me when I was younger about once a year, but as I mature they are happening more and more. About once or twice a month. Other people have set it off other than my mom, 99 percent of the time its her... come to think of it 100 percent of the time its her after she has been drinking. (she is the definition of annoying drunk. she gets all deep and meaningful and i hate it SOO much, just thinking about it makes me mad. honestly if I continue I will have one of these "attacks")
now, when I fully freak out I am by myself. No one home ever.
the only time it has happened in front of people, was when I was at my Aunts house in her hot tub, when my mom started talking about some thing. I tensed up and started freaking out about the water and how we were basically cooking in feet sweat soup. my mom was on a feminist drunken rampage, thinking she was all cool and relaxed. And these horrible thoughts over came me about hurting her. Like ... just then and there attacking her, doing awful things. but I ran out of there as soon as they arouse and took a hot long shower and scrubbed myself until my skin burned. then I went to sleep for 16 hours.
I haven't told anyone about these.
what could it be?
I liiiied.
i was thinking after i posted this.
it now always my mom.
it can be other things to. yuuuuuuh
Mr. Sonny
This is beyond a panic or anxiety attack--it sounds like rage that needs to be addressed by a professional. Please seek help or at the very least talk to someone you can confide in.
sfguybryan
Sounds like it could be manic depression or maybe bi-polar. You should see a doctor about it because it sounds like you've gotten pretty extreme with your reactions. You don't want to hurt someone, or yourself, when you start to react so violently.
Seng
Hey everyone,
I have Panic disorder for more than 12 years already and my condition has been improving a lot! My medication started from 20mg per day till just 10mg on alternate days (or just 5mg per day) - I even thought of quitting medication. I also realized that there are many others who have Panic Attacks out there and I decided to reach out and help them.
So I have started a blog to give free panic attack tips and techniques that have helped me for all these years:
http://PanicAttackResearch.blogspot.com
I do hope it will help you all =)
With Regards,
Seng
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